Pieces of Mind

December 1, 2009

Distance.Over.Time

Filed under: Thoughts — budakiab @ 1:21 pm and

Tup tap tup tap
Pejam celik pejam celik
Sok sek sok sek
Habis satu sem sudah..
Bagi yg bekerja, cutinya hanyalah sabtu ahad plus cuti2 awam; menjadikan dia tidak sedar bila masanya cuti bagi mereka yg belajar. Untuk student2 postgrad, tak sedar bila cuti pelajar undergrad. Dan bagi pelajar undergrad,terlupa bilanya cuti pelajar2 sekolah. Ini mungkin bagi sebahagian insan atau aku je kot. Namun, begitulah masa berlalu, dan terus berlalu; sama ada disedari atau tidak. Yang pasti, masa tidak akan kembali.

TIME is LIFE. Acceptable or not, ponder for yourself.
Apa yang kita dapat apabila jarak dibahagi masa?
Ya, kadar laju.
Sekarang, ini adalah kes manipulasi.
Katakan jarak di sini merupakan mildstone atau titik yg ingin ditiba dalam hidup. Dengan jumlah masa yg telah diketahui, berapa kelajuan yg diperlukan utk ke destinasi?

Aku ambil diri sendiri sebagai contoh. Sekarang aku perlukan 2 tahun (masa) untuk memperoleh segulung ijazah master (mild stone). Jadi berapa kelajuan yg perlu aku pecut untuk sampai ke destinasi? Andai aku membawa kereta, di gear berapa perlu aku masuk supaya kerja-kerja lab aku dapat disiapkan? Supaya assignment aku dapat disubmit on time? Supaya progress aku sentiasa in progress? Supaya aku sempat siapkan writing dan publish journal? Dan semua ini dalam tempoh dua tahun (belum lagi perkara-perkara lain yang hendak/perlu dilakukan dalam tempoh tersebut) agar tidak end up keciciran atau extended. Boleh tak analog ni digunakan dalam titik2 hidup kita yg lain? Hrmm..

2012, antara hot movie bulan November. Satu tarikh yg dianggarkan akan berlaku ‘The day’. Tarikh yg diandaikan saat bumi tidak lagi mampu menampung kerosakan alam dek aktiviti manusia yg melampau lalu meletuplah ia memuntahkan isinya. Saat bebintang dan komet2 lari dari paksinya lalu jatuh menjunam menghempas bumi. Saat air bergelora naik menutupi gunung- ganang. Ok, kita ketepikan komentari kelogikan dan graphic yg digunakan. Yang pasti, hari kiamat lebih dahsyat dan kita tidak tahu masa sebenar hari yg dijanjikan itu, apalagi bila ajal kita. Pokoknya, kiamat dan ajal itu pasti. Persoalannya, mengapa kita tidak diberitahu bila masa berlaku ya? Would it help if we know when? Andainya 2012 itu benar2 tarikhnya, adakah kita akan bersegera menyediakan diri menghadapinya? Katakan sekarang mildstone kita adalah hari kiamat, dan masanya adalah 2012 (Wow, dalam dua tahun lagi tuh!), jadi berapa gear kita nak masuk dalam mempersiapkan diri menghadapinya? Apa yg boleh kita lakukan dalam tempoh dua tahun agar kita tidak gentar bila tiba saatnya? Agar kita berada di kalangan mereka yg menerima syafaat(pertolongan) di hari penghisaban? Agar kita selayaknya menerima ‘report card’ dengan tangan kanan dan kembali dengan penuh keriangan? Hrmm…

“Sesungguhnya kebahagiaan itu ialah; anda hidup
Unuk pemikiran yang benar dan kukuh
Untuk aqidah yang terbesar yang menyelesaikan urusan alam yang lampau
Jawablah soalan yang disoal oleh orang yang tertanya-tanya semasa mereka mengahayati petunjuk
Dari manakah aku datang?
Ke manakah aku hendak pergi?
Kenapa aku dijadikan?
Adakah aku hidup kembali?

Lalu bersinarlah keyakinan di dalam jiwa
Terusir segala keraguan yang nakal dan derhaka
Terdidiklah fikiran yang waras
Terciptalah akhlak yang mulia
Dan kembalilah setiap akal yang menyeleweng kepada jalan yang benar dan lurus
Hidupmu akan dikurniakan nilai
Oleh tuhanmu agar hidupmu terbina
Supaya matamu memandang di segala ufuk
Ke arah cita-cita yang tinggi dan mulia
Lalu hiduplah kamu di dunia untuk akhirat
Di sanalah kamu hidup kekal dan tidak fana’
Kau tudung bumimu dengan langit
Dan para malaikat menjadi saksi
Itulah aqidah Islam untuk muslim yang bahagia
Itulah asas, itulah tiang serinya
Sesiapa yang hidup memikulnya sambil memekik dengan namanya;
Dialah orang yang berbahagia

- Dr. Yusuf Al-Qardhawi -

p/s to dearest me: Walk the Talk

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November 7, 2009

Heart Beat #1

Filed under: Beatz of d Heart — budakiab @ 8:23 am and

Langkah Tercipta - Unic

Semalam aku kelukaan,
kecewa kehampaan,
mencalar ketabahan,
mimpi yang sering ku harapkan,
menjadi kenyataan,
namun tak kesampaian.

Allah…
Inginku hentikan langkah ini,
bagaikan tak mampu untuk ku bertahan,
semangat tenggelam,
lemah daya,
haruskah aku mengalah,
namun jiwaku berbisik,
inilah dugaan.

Dan langkahku kini terbuka,
pada hikmah dugaan,
uji keimanan (menguji keimanan),
tak dilontarkanNya ujian,
di luar kekuatan,
setiap diri insan.

Allah…
pimpinlah diriku,
tuk bangkit semula,
meneruskan langkah,
perjuangan ini,
cekalkan hati dan semangatku,
kurniakan ketabahan,

agar mimpi jadi nyata,
padaMu ku meminta.

Daku mohon agung kudratMu,
wahai Tuhan yang satu,
segalanya dariMu.

KuMohon - Firdaus

Di lubuk hatiku terdalam..
Ini yg kupilih penuh keyakinan
Namun kadang bimbang menyerang..
Sanggupkah melangkah..
..kuterus berjalan..
Saat badai menderaku
Hingga rapuh dan goyah
Tiada daya tuk bertahan..
Hanya Engkau tempat berpegang..

Saat hujan membasahiku..
Penuh lumpur dan noda..dan deraian air mata..
Dengarlah permohonanku..
..Berkatilah semangat jiwa tuk slalu berjuang di jalanMu..
Kau jagalah hati yang terkadang redup ditiup angin duniawi..

Gemerlap kilauan harta,pangkat dan cinta manusia..
Yang melalaikan..selamanya…

Siapa yang mengenal Tuhanmu,
Maka ia pasti akan mencintaiNya
Siapa yang mengenal dunia
Maka ia pasti akan berpantang diri terhadapnya

-Hassan al-Basri-

ismi: A down week..to You and only You I turn to..
bare in mind dearest me, ujian adalah tarbiah drNya, tanda ingatan dan kasihNya.. =’)

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October 27, 2009

Wrapping up Syawal

Filed under: IsMe — budakiab @ 10:53 am and

Already a week late to wrap up some of Syawal’s events~
Hm, they say a picture worth a thousands words, so I’ll just let the pictures tell their stories.

1 Syawal 1430 (Ahad,20/09/09)

First time raya xpulang kampung and no baju raya.
Raya was at Hospital Putrajaya. Nenek kena masuk ward sebab limpanya bengkak. Limpa/spleen plays important roles in regard to red blood cells and our immune system. Praying that she’ll recover. On the bright side, all relatives had to come and gather here. So for the first time (after quite a long time I think), instead of us balik kampung and not getting the chance of meeting everyone, I get to meet all here. And woa, the house was way crowded. How to say, bess~ (even asik kena buli dgn my pakciks.heh). Tapi xpe, janji familyhood warmth tetap terasa (^-^)v

Latest update about my grandma, discharged on 21st Oct, alhamdulillah.. Diagnosed to have melioidosis. Hrmm..

Duk sibuk bwk juadah ke hospital sasmpi lupa nak bring along the camera for raya pictures.So only this sebagai kenangan di hospital..

Duk sibuk bwk juadah ke hospital sampai lupa nak bring along the camera for raya pictures. So only this sebagai kenangan di hospital..

2 Syawal 1430 (Isnin, 21/09/09)

raj0|en.Peja|ana|mek Jah

raj0 | en.Peja | ana | mek Jah

Dearest Ana,
kosmetku, rumetku, sahabat dunia akhiratku..
Selamat jua dirimu akhirnya ya. Kunukilkan madah yg xberapa nak puitis untukmu

Mengenang kenangan mengimbau memori
Kisah suka duka dirai dikongsi
Usik manja, guro canda, tangis tawa memenuhi kamar kita
Pastikan menjadi kenangan indah selamanya..

Tiada madah jua hadiah
Hanya doa dari kejauhan kutitipkan untukmu
Agar hidupmu bersamanya barakah selalu
Bahagia hingga anak cucu

[30:21] Dan di antara tanda-tanda kekuasaan-Nya ialah Dia menciptakan untukmu istri-istri dari jenismu sendiri, supaya kamu cenderung dan merasa tenteram kepadanya, dan dijadikan-Nya di antaramu rasa kasih dan sayang. Sesungguhnya pada yang demikian itu benar-benar terdapat tanda-tanda bagi kaum yang berpikir.

[25:74] Dan orang-orang yang berkata: “Ya Tuhan kami, anugerahkanlah kepada kami istri-istri kami dan keturunan kami sebagai penyenang hati (kami), dan jadikanlah kami imam bagi orang-orang yang bertakwa.

4 Syawal 1430 (Rabu, 23/09/09)

Went to IBS. Planned to do some lab work. Something made me down, so just returned home instead.

5 Syawal 1430 (Khamis, 24/09/09)

Class ganti for Multivariate analysis. Went back home (BU) after class. Achu dah pulang, so accompanied her till the rest of the households were back..

That maghrib, watched the news. Raya in Gaza was just at a soccer field. Dengan pakaian ala kadar, makanan ala kadar dan kemeriahan yg sekadarnya. A civilian said “bagaimana kami mahu bergembira sedangkan ramai sanak saudara kami telah pergi temui illahi??”
Aku terkedu..menginsafi..

Dear Asma’, fabiayyi aalaa i rabbikuma tukazzibaan.. Maka nikmat Tuhan kamu yg manakah kamu dustakan?


6 Syawal 1430 (Jumaat, 26/10/09)

Went out with Achu that evening. Head to IBS first untuk thumbprint, lalu jln dlm kolej. Mungkin disebabkan silau sinar mentari, I drove the car to the middle of the road. Kereta dr arah bertentangan ponned. Selamat. superSipi.

Kemudian hantar Achu lak ke fak medic to punch out. Passed palang otomatik to enter. On the way out, Agaknya disebabkan silau sinar mentari juga, I didn’t see the palang. Tgh tekan minyak kuat lak tuh. Achu dah pegang tgn aku shrieking, “achik, achik, achikkkk~” Baru ak nak prasan. Baik break Marjan (nama kereta aku) ni cepat makan. Again,selamat. Palang tu boleh lak nak lambat sense kereta aku.heh

Only then we headed to Sg.Chua..
Kat roundabout, mahsyuk sgt tgk kereta2 kat bulatan sampai tidak menyedari Marjan slowly bergerak dan semakin menghampiri kancil hadapan. Bila Achu dah ‘achik, achik, achikkk~’, cepat2 aku tekan break. Fuh, selamat. Alhamdulillah..

Setibanya di Celcom Centre, was closed. Syabbas (being sarcastic here). So off we head to Mines. Baru nak keluar simpang belok kiri, a motor from nowhere (from my left actually) tiba-tiba muncul. Berciumlah kami disitu.. Syukur motor tersebut slow jek, jadi xbercalar.. Raised my hand as a sign of apology and drove off.

This time, perjalanannya selamat sampaila kami tiba di rumah..huhu..

To think of it, whats with me that day.. Kesian achu duk menahan jantung. hilang kredibiliti aku sebagai driver berhemah di mata dia. huhu..
Apakah aku mulakan hariku dgn tidak mengingatiNya?
Apakah aku xmulakan kereta dgn bismillah?
Apakah aku ada alpa?

Ya Allah, moga tiap yg terjadi menjadi kifarah buatku. Astaghfirullah..

*On top of all, syukur sampai kini kami masih bernyawa

14 Syawal 1430 (Sabtu, 3/10/09)

Dad buat jemputan for his students and staffs. Aku tak ketinggalan tumpang sekaki menjemput kawan2 dan ikut mereka konvoi sama beraya as planned..

girlfriends

girlfriends

kosmates+collegemates+senior+juniors+parent

kosmates+collegemates+senior+juniors+parent

di halaman rumah Zeela a.k.a blur at Bandar Sunway

di halaman rumah Zeela a.k.a blur at Bandar Sunway

20 Syawal 1430 (Jumaat, 9/10/09)

Sampling at Putrajaya

See the oily scum on the water surface? B.braunii blooming

Sampling at Putrajaya Lake will be my monthly activity for a year. Yes, tiresome. Yet, membuat kerja sambil menikmati keindahan alam ciptaanNya, no loss to it ;).

pelampung dah cantik, tapi ada tangan kacau daun plak.. :p

credits to kak Su, en.Awie and mek Jah (sori,xde gambair yg lebih elok.hehe)

credits to kak Su, en.Awie and mek Jah (sori,xde gambar yg lebih elok.hehe)

[16:14] Dan Dia-lah, Allah yang menundukkan lautan (untukmu) agar kamu dapat memakan daripadanya daging yang segar (ikan), dan kamu mengeluarkan dari lautan itu perhiasan yang kamu pakai; dan kamu melihat bahtera berlayar padanya, dan supaya kamu mencari (keuntungan) dari karunia-Nya, dan supaya kamu bersyukur.

[16.18] Dan jika kamu menghitung-hitung nikmat Allah, niscaya kamu tak dapat menentukan jumlahnya. Sesungguhnya Allah benar-benar Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang.

Jamuan raya sisters

A little eid fiesta for sisters at Baitul Ukhuwah (BU), Serdang.

A little eid fiesta for sisters at Baitul Ukhuwah (BU), Serdang.

“None of you truly believes (in Allah and in His religion) until he loves for his brother what he loves for himself”

[Al-Bukhari & Muslim]

29 Syawal 1430 (Ahad, 18/10/09)

Family day JIM Sepang

Sis Siti|Amal|Isme|Khaulah|Suhana

Sis Siti | Amal | isme | Khaulah | Suhana

Indahnya berukhuwah di jalanNya, berkasih keranaNya, bersama membawa panjiNya

Sisters playing bowling kampung

Sisters playing bowling kampung

Alang with Naurah. Anak?? naah,anak sedara usrah.haha

Alang with Naurah. Anak??naah,anak sedara usrah.haha

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.. Ramadhan madrastul ibadah
Syawal daarul istiqamah
Zulkaedah shahrul hajj ..

isme: wokep,
Update blog … check
Penfailan journalz … check
Lab works … check. But keep on compiling.heh
Mandikan Marjan … check
Update Hamdi … on the way~
Self enhancement … in progress

TIME is LIFE -Pak Banna

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September 28, 2009

Kisah Sebutir Benih

Filed under: SPIRIT of d SOUL — budakiab @ 1:19 am and

Rasa nak ngarut jap..

Once upon a time, there was a dormant seed. It landed itself on a mystical piece of land where the soil received plenty showers and sufficient sunlight for it to grow. Years and seasons passed by, all the way it absorbed water and became fatter with the accumulating storage. However, it still wasn’t ready to grow.

Until the scent of spring arrive..

The spring this time was different. It gave flavors and wondering splendors for the buds to pop out. Hence, slowly and smoothly, the buds allow its way to catch the early rays of spring with sparkling hopes and dreams. The sunshine beamed with warmth. Birds were chirping delightfully. Spring breeze were refreshing. Feeling enthusiastic and welcomed to the new world, the early bud was determined to bloom into a great big tree so it could shade those who pass by from the blazing sun; be a cozy spot to rest; allow its bark to be put swings on and ultimately, to produce sweet ripe fruits for humans to feed; for it knows, knowledge without deed is like trees without fruit. It did not want to be such tree. It dreamt to be a useful creation to others and be a significant part of nature that is, to produce oxygen, which living things basically depends on. It also was determined to stay head strong no matter how strong the wind of reality blows.

Sebutir benih jatuh ke bumi

Menjadi pepohon yg hijau merimbun

Mewarnai alam dengan keindahan

Untuk dinikmati oleh semua insan yang rindukan..

Ketenangan jiwa~

(lyrics from Nowseeheart)

Now that it bloomed, life began to show its real colors. The taught it put during dormancy becomes to shatter. So many questions popping, but indefinite answers were found. It met many kinds of human passing by and kids playing around. It saw its older mates proudly giving service to humans, yet still standing tall although there were heartless humans who came carving their barks out. For sure they were scratched and bleeding, but contradictory, they just danced along the passing wind and whispered; no pain, no gain; no worries, time heals.

Perceiving all this, the baby tree learns what life is all about. It heard a passer by said, khairunnas yanfa’unnas (most favorable amongst you is the one who favors others). It mused.. It may not be a human, but knowing who created it, from what it is created, why it is created, and where it will stand, it will thrive its best. Not knowing when it’ll return; let it be a reminder that life on this land isn’t forever. Therefore, let it be thrown to the ocean, it’ll grow into an island, let it be thrown onto an island, it’ll grow into a mountain. In the end, it’s all about the climb.

There’s a beat in ma heart..

I can almost see it.
that dream I’m dreaming, but
there’s a voice inside my head, tellin’
you’ll never reach it
every step I’m takin’
every move I make
feels lost in no direction,
my faith is shakin’
but I gotta keep tryin’
gotta keep my head held high

There’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
always gonna be an uphill battle
sometimes I’m gonna have to lose
ain’t about how fast I get there
ain’t about what’s waitin’ on the other side
it’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing
the changes I’m taking
sometimes they knock me down, but
no I’m not breaking
I may not know where, but
these are the moments that
I’m gonna remember most
I’ve just gotta keep goin’, and
I gotta be strong
just keep pushing on

Keep on movin’
keep climbin’
keep faith
it’s all about the climb
keep the faith

Keep your faith, woah~

(Lyrics from Hanna Montanna)

If you know the strength and patience, welcome the company of trees -Hal Borland

Life’s a climb, but the view’s great ;)

Dialah Yang Awal, Yang Akhir, Yang Zahir dan Yang Batin, dan Dia Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu (57:3)

*Yang Awal: yg telah wujud sebelum segala sesuatu ada

Yang Akhir: yg kekal setelah segala sesuatu musnah

Yang Zahir: yg Maha Tinggi

Yang Batin: tiada sesuatupun yg menghalangiNya dan Dia lebih dekat kpd makhluk drpd makhluk itu sendiri kpd dirinya

Yang Zahir: yg Maha Tinggi

Yang Batin: tiada sesuatupun yg menghalangiNya dan Dia lebih dekat kpd makhluk drpd makhluk itu sendiri kpd dirinya

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August 28, 2009

Summer Scent ^^

Filed under: SPIRIT of d SOUL — budakiab @ 2:25 am and

Looking outside through my bedroom window..

Morning breeze entered the room giving me freshness. Plump clouds gleaming silver lines as sun rays peeped through my curtains, and skies has found a deeper blue.

Closing my eyes, ahh.. The scent is here. Like the scent of a coming rain, like the scent of a just mowed grass and just like the scent of spring, Ramadhan has arrived.

Welcome ya Ramadhan welcome.

Marhaban ya Ramadhan marhaban.

What time is it?

Its Ramadhan time.

What time is it?

Its fasting time.

What time is it?

Its enhancing time.

(singing like those in school musical 2(summer time), but juz on ma bed.heh)

Yes, Ramadhan worth of a thousand month. So many fadhilat and barakah promised by Allah for it is our month, month of the ummah. And I believe most of us, muslims must have already started their race in enhancing their deeds and upgrading themselves. Might even have a target list. Or is it juz me who makes an entry during Ramadhan? (The first entry since ages. Kena kemas sawang2 nih.heh)

My, that puts me into envy. I would not want to be left behind. huhu~

It’s just that my mind went musing, pondering after 7 days of Ramadhan.I will be doing ‘extra’ in this month. But got this head stuck at a question.

After all the effort I put in my amalan for one month, will my amalan fade away as Ramadhan walks away? Is it worth the effort to work extra hard in the amalan but then leave it as Syawal arrive just to gain the reward offered?

It’s like building a good bond with someone but then goes leaving him/her behind after earning the benefit. Now that’s so self-centered of me, won’t you think?

Wouldn’t it be better to maintain the relationship? I don’t think I have anything to loose. In fact, could be one day I need help n only this him/her could help me. By having such relation, I think it would be easier at heart to ask for help instead of asking help out of the blue. Though I can just ask, but it may require time after some doubts? We usually ask help from those we are good with. Agree?

The point here is, ibadah is a relation between ‘abd n his rabb. Ramadhan gives us the chance of making full commitment in our ibadah n building a good bond with Him. Wouldn’t it be beautiful if we could savor the bond by having constancy with Him though His rich reward is no longer valid?(yet other reward are offered.hehehe) Isn’t to Him we turn to in difficulties? But why is it we always remember God in difficulties/hardship but seldom remember in easiness/comfort? Or do we even realize that He wants to be close but it is us who are declining?

I took the Tafseer. After reading some versus of the Quran, spotted an answer…

“And when My servants ask you (O’Prophet) concerning Me, tell them I am near to them. I hear and answer the prayer of the suppliant, when he calls to Me. So let them respond to My call and believe in Me. Convey this to them O’prophet so they may be guided aright aright.”(2:186)

“He is the Lord of the Heaven and the Earth and of what lies between them; so serve Him and be steadfast in His service..” (19:65)

He is near..He hears and answers. Subhanallah,such simple yet wonderful answers to sooth the heart ^^. And yes, steadfast. Be steadfast in His service. An A for my Q, the answer to my question.

I even recalled a hadith giving some brighter answer;

‘Aishah narrated that Allah’s Apostle said, “do good deeds properly, sincerely and moderately, and know that your deeds will not make you enter Paradise, and that the most beloved deed to Allah is the most regular and constant even though it were little.”(Al-Bukhari)

Now, this is about being steadfast. Of course I want Allah to love what I am doing for Him. Therefore I have to be constant in my amalan or whatever I am doing and do it with proper and sincere. Masya Allah, herein this hadith already laid the keyword to Allah’s love in doing amal;

Proper. Sincere. Moderate. Regular. Constant.

Ok, means here I can’t just stop after the 30th day of Ramadhan. Or else that would be a loss for me since my days ahead will be worse than the days before. But what if I can’t afford doing the deeds in other months the way I did in Ramadhan? Yes I know I can’t pray taraweh in other months. Duh~ I mean other deeds such as reading and memorizing the Quran, sunnah prayers, performing solah early, do extra readings or helping out at the kitchen when I have a maid (ha ha :p).

Another hadith struck my head,

‘Aishah narrated: The Prophet pbuh was asked,: “What deeds are loved most by Allah?” He said, “The most regular, constant deeds, even though they may be few.” He added, “Don’t take upon yourselves, except the deeds which are upon your ability.”(Al-Bukhari)

Alhamdulillah~what a relief.. Means here it is okay to do few, as long it is constant and within my ability. Hm, think there is a double meaning to ‘within my ability’. One means that of course I should not be overdoing things and the other is not to do things having too low my standards. What is important is that whatever I decide to do, it must be within the realm of my capabilities. Say I want to earn credits from my professor and get excellent grades; of course I have to show constant progress in my study and research. It must be performed within my ability and without excessively done. In other words, not to the point that I get sick, hurting others, stressed out or neglect my responsibilities. Easy put, huh?

My, how beautiful islam is. Allah really knows His servants and He made things easier for us in abiding His commands. Masha Allah.. My heart feels so at ease thinking of how Allah has given such easy guidelines for life-in becoming a better person and earn His pleasure, insya-Allah..

What easy instructions for those who choose to follow them, don’t you think? ;-)

“Every single day is a self-improving opportunity” -me

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May 12, 2008

Notes 4 d’ Soul

Filed under: SPIRIT of d SOUL — budakiab @ 8:15 pm and

Biar kepahitan itu pergi, agar kemanisan mengisi.

Biarkan kekecewaan berlalu, agar kegembiraan mewarnai.

Biarkan kegelisahan lenyap, jangan kita hilang semangat.

Biar penderitaan itu menyapa, agar kekuatan kita jana
semula.

Biarkanlah diri ini derita,

agar kutahu keperitannya.

agar aku tahu kesengsaraan ini tak sama, bahkan hanya

secebis dari penderitaan Rasulullah s.a.w.

Tuhan tidak sesekali menzalimi hambaNya,tapi manusia yang
menzalimi diri mereka sendiri.

Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan
kesanggupannya.Dia mendapat pahala dari kebajikan yang dikerjakannya dan dia
mendapat siksa dari kejahatan yang diperbuatnya..”

[ Al-Baqarah:286]

Cahaya kelam, pahala dosa,

Berupaya memilihnya.

“Sungguh, Kami telah menunjukkan kepadanya jalan yang lurus;
ada yang bersyukur dan ada pula yang kufur..”

[Al-Insan:3]

Walau kadangkala tersasar lantaran pautan n a f s u

Namun peluang dariNya sentiasa ada.

Namun kasih dariNya sentiasa memayungi.

“ Sungguh,Allah telah menerima taubat nabi,orang-orang
Muhajirin dan orang-orang Ansar, yang mengikuti nabi pada masa-masa sulit,
setelah hati segolongan mereka hampir berpaling,kemudian Allah menerima taubat
mereka,sesungguhnya Allah Maha Pengasih,Maha Penyayang kepada mereka.”

[at-Taubah:117]

Diturunkan adDin mempertajamkan akal

Dianugerahkam akal memperhalusi akhlak

Dikurniakan akhlak mencantikkan pekerti

Menjadi sebaik-baik umat

Tunduk sebagai hamba

“Aku tidak menjadikan jin dan manusia melainkan agar mereka
beribadah kepadaKu.”

[adz-Dzariyaat:56]

Berjalan sebagai khalifah

“Dan ingatlah ketika Tuhanmu berfirman kepada para malaikat,
‘Aku ingin menjadikan khalifah di bumi’.Mereka berkata, ‘apakah Engkau hendak
menjadikan orang yang merusak dan menumpahkan darah disana sedangkan kami bertasbih memujuMu dan
menyucikanMu?’ Dia berfirman, ‘sungguh aku mengetahui apa yang tidak kamu
ketahui.”

[al-Baqarah:30]

Menyusuri kehidupan mencari sebutir permata bernama I m a n

Menyemai pohonant a q wa

Agar dapat berteduh dari kepanasan n a f s u

Agar dapat berlindung dari angin hasutan s y a i t a n

Dalam menggapai r e d h a Illahi…

Dearest me, Dearest u,

‘Gantunglah citamu setinggi bebintang di langit,

Hamparkanlah hatimu serendah mutiara di dasar lautan..’

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How to Lie with Stats?

Filed under: Books — budakiab @ 7:48 pm and

How to Lie with Statistics by
Darrel Huff is a fun and informative book which tells us how statisticians try
to deceive the public with misleading statistics. The book makes me skeptical
enough to realize that facts playing with numbers is never-if not more so than
ever- accurate and how easily we fall into it all this time.

   

The fundamental lesson I learned from the book is that
mathematical calculation involves a whole set of conditions, and any number
derived from such a calculation is meaningless without understanding their
conditions. In a simple example he used, Darrel showed how a well chosen average
could be manipulated by fellows wishing to influence public opinion or sell
advertising space using the word ‘average’, which has a very loose meaning. The
‘victim’ will then never be able to pin it on them not knowing the average used
was mean, median or mod in the first place.
   

Despite the book is a bit dated
(having been written in the 1950’s), I could see that every chapter which
contain plenty of real world example is the manifestation of what I’ve learned
in Biostatistics class, theoretically and principally. Each chapter tells about
different method of misrepresentation, like mixed-up averages, misleading
graphs and faulty experiments.

 
            In Gee-Whiz graph, we could see how
graphical display of statistics can be twisted so that one can get any desired
result though the stats weren’t changed. Whereas another chapter entitled The
Little Figures That Are Not There shows how that results are not indicative of
anything can be produced by pure chance given a small enough number of cases.
The book stated that only when there are a substantial number of trials
involved is the law of averages a useful description or prediction, and this
correlates to what I’ve learned in class- the sample size for a data to be
considered normal is at least 30.

            Reading chapter 8, Post Hoc Rides Again rings
a bell of the Post Hoc test I learned in class- a test used to identify the location
of mean difference after conducting ANOVA. However this chapter tells us how
people erroneously leap from statistical correlation to a cause-and-effect. One
of the many examples that interest me was a report in which chances for
graduated women to become an old maid is skyrocket compared to men. When a
teenage girl read this, she thinks she’ll be less likely to get a man if she
goes to college than if she doesn’t go. Of course a statistical study showing
that there is a ‘significant’ relation between sexuality and education does not
show which causes the other. Saying going to college gets in the way of
marrying leaves me with question marks. In my opinion, there is a third factor
(lurking variable) that stands in between which is usually neglected by the
experimenter. Here Darrel said that usually flaws and assumptions of causality
are not always so easy to spot, especially when the relationship seems to make
a lot of sense or when it pleases the popular prejudice. I admit with that.

     In addition, Darrel’s light humor
makes statistics looks more interesting. I enjoyed reading the funny dialogs of
the figures. I love the comical figure of a man with resentful face wondering
why his spouse does always occupies 75.6% of the space on bed, that just made
me smirk. The humor even started from the beginning with a dedication “to my
wife with good reason” and it runs smoothly until the end.   

    Finally, in the last chapter, I
think those related to science field who read this might be teased for he
humored that not all statistical information that we may come upon can be
tested with the sureness of chemical analysis or what goes on in an assayer’s
laboratory. It’s true though. He then rounded off by providing five questions
for readers to ask when confronting with statistics.

  1. Who says so?
  2. How does he know?
  3. What’s missing?
  4. Did somebody change the subject?
  5. Does it make sense?

 As a conclusion, to me, this book
is not truly a guide on how to lie with statistics, but it is an excellent text
that informs readers both how others lie to them using statistics and how to
interpret the validity of purported statistical data.

 

* Out of obligation on us,bi0 students class bi0statistics; A review regarding a book on statistics. i find it interesting. gud 4 d public supaya xcpt ‘mlatah’ bila baca any adverts on statistics anywhere.huhu

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May 5, 2008

BLOG vs DIARY

Filed under: Thoughts — budakiab @ 3:06 am and

Cumbersome. U need 2
spare sum times 2 sit in front of d comp. not juz dat, need 2 wait 4 d comp 2
completely open then access 2 d tenet. A waste of time.

Vs

Juz flip open a cute
book, take a pen, and simply write. Piece of cake

Does not represent ur

feelings. Static,str8 n olwez neat. x bes

Vs

Ur writings expresses ur feelings.

Reminds u of how u feel back then when u read back 1 day.huhu

Restricted style.

unless u rajin 2 xplore more n make  ur own design dat meets ur taste.

But then,back 2 basic,cumbersome.wahaha

Vs

Free style.tringin
nak lukeh2 or sketch2 etc, don’t have 2 click2 here n there.terus j tenyeh
dakwat.so,dhiddu (opposite 2) cumbersome is convenient.wahaha

Nk letak gmbr?kene
upload..browse files..ala sz besaw la plak..edit2..

Leceh2.iskh

Vs

Gmbr?lekat j rh.huhu

Considering public’s
opinion/thoughts on

ur artikel, might affect ur confidence level thinking that ur H null is true

(aplikasi biostatistics.ngehngeh)

Vs

Who cares of wat they
think.

nama pun diary, so its PRIVATE n CONFIDENTIAL.wekk

Body posture
restricted,even u’re using a laptop, p lg deskt0p

Vs

Free posture
beb..asal leh nulis.huhu

Kalau lelama ada
radiasi wOo..xelok tuk mata au.huh +,+

Vs

Rasenye skrin buku x
hasilkan radiasi

U can convey ur touts n view of many2
aspects, thus berlakulah exchange of touts..

Vs

Outsiders aren’t
aloud 2 read, p lagi nk ksk opinion.lalala

Memenuhi cabaran arus
globalisasi zmn skng. An academician said “it’s a must 2 noe knowledge”.me n0
komen..ye r, even my biostat class use blog as a medium 2 submit our
assignment.yish

Vs

Lopek r..a.k.a dh ketinggalan
zaman r..kononnye

Hm.wat more uh? Rasenye bnyk je lg alasan yg blh dicipta
oleh insan2 yg mls nk o9spt ak. We can say ‘nak cte ape dlm blog?’ o ‘wat malu
je r..’, ‘buang ms jek’, tapi mengikut method penyelesaian masalah yg telah diplajari dlm Kemahiran Hidup
Bersepadu,KHB,during tingkatan bape tah, dgn menyenaraikan kebaikan dan
keburukan setiap aspek of our choice,kite akn dpt buat pilihan yg i.Allah
tepat.

N nampaknye DIARY telah memenangi pbandingan ini dgn
memiliki 80% kebaikan melebihi blog.wahaha..bgs2.

However, kpentingan BLOG is still undeniable, thus there is
insufficient proof 2 reject BLOG n say
it as sumtin useless.cne nk ekut arus globalisasi klu cm2??eceyh..

so,kesimpulannya?
p ek..ermm..

D conclusion is, the result is statistically insignificant n
not valid.Justeru,its not wrong 2 have both ryte? Blog can be a medium 2 convey
messages..it wont b a waste of time if we use it beneficially ryte?nak2 lg dlm
usaha mencari redha illahi a.k.a conveying wat is ‘haq’..plus, u’ll never know
if u have any hidden writing skills unless u start with a scribble.
Yeke?huhu

Every drop of sweat, every breath we take, if not 4 d sake
of Allah, will lead to regret and sorrow on the Day of Judgment.- ibn al-Qayyim

Erm..actualy wats d point of me writing this?

juz 2 apply biostat?

o  juz bein p0y0z l0p0z stelah skian lm xmsk fs?ha ha

adey..gue da x betul.

Juz a tout.

D’END

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February 16, 2007

-OnlY hOPe-

Filed under: Beatz of d Heart — budakiab @ 6:51 pm and

heres a song dats inside of my soul..
is d one dat i’ve tried 2 write over n over agen..
i’m awakin’ d infinite c0ld..
..but u sing 2 me over n over agen..

so i lay my head back down
n i lift my hands n pray..
2 b only urs i pray..2 b only urs i noe now u’re my only h0pe..

..sing 2 me d song of d stars of ur galaxy
dancin’ n laugfin’ n laughfin’ agen..
when it feels lyk my dream is so far
sing 2 me all d plans dat u have 4 me over n over agen..
i give u my destiny..
i’m giving u all of me
i want ur symphony singing in all dat i am..
at d t0p of my lungs
..i’m giving it back..

..sumtymes..
d best n d m0st beautiful things in d w0rld
cann0t be seen..
cann0t be touch
but can be felt in d heart..

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July 22, 2006

..[L]one [R]anger..

Filed under: IsMe — budakiab @ 8:10 pm and

tout dah 3 tahun.rupenye baru 3 weeks aftr reg.hm..
haven’t had enuf rest since d past 2 weeks.so hectic.x smpt2 nk rvice blk 1st week punyer lctr.sumtymes progm hbs kul 12.blk2 otak dh pnat..

cnanye ak x spatutnye brada di cni.fac is having a kem kat P.D.tp ptghn progm parent ak mai jmput balik.they wanted me 2 hv a rest since apparently i’m not dat well.sore ak pn dh pecah[cnanyer ak suke jek sore pecah2 ni.ckp skt dh bgegar satu atmosphere.no more halus2 voice.huhu]
shari b4 camp,ak blk uma tuk cukupkan barang2.mom noticed i’m not well n x galakkan ak g.i insisted 2 go.2njuk cekal la k0n0n.skali ayah balik dr laos,hbs dijejaknye ak smpi ke P.D sn ha soh blk uma.n now here i am.stuck in front of dis pc skrin wat luahan prasaan.heh
i noe it’s 4 my own good.klu tmbh parah,stadi ak gak yg susa..
tp mmandangkn ak dh follow skt progrm kt sn,i was getting 2 like it n looking 4wrd in making new frenz.though 1 thing i didnt like was ebout d boundaries btween boys n gurlz.longgar.in terms of tents’ site n tandas were a bit..not a bit.ala sng kate dkt gler rh.paya ma..
i even smpat pnjat pokok 2..old fav hobi.fuh.puas.wlu hanya stakat kaki pokok.heh

Imag0107_2

hm.org kate demam ni if isnt bcuz of d whether,it’s bcuz of stress.btul ke?
gee..2 think of it,i hv 2 admit,i’m tired..
tired of being strong..
tired of staying strong..
missing ma old buddies..ma gud old days..
besa la 2 ek?
but if dis isnt juz a miss.wanting them back in 3D.boleyh x?
’solidly’ beside me.boleyh x?
hm.klu dpt skalipn,things wont b d same ek.
people say past is d past.no turning back.look 4wrd.
hm.y is it so hard 2 leave d past when others can easily move on??uhuk..
a sahabat of mine psan;put ‘aql n fikiran in front.ekut prasaan will lead 2 nowhere.
ok pakcik.i’ll follow.if only it is ez as spoken..
pepun,blessed 2 hv frenz who’ll b there when they r in need.pka,eka,bye..etc..thnx.dunno how 2 show my gratitude.juz needing them in 3D now..
thank god mira ada.at least aderla femiliar face whom i can hold on 2..not me alone here..
n i’m building new frenz here.sakinah..ana..:)Imag0102_1

bkata hati>>
udah2la 2 as..ko mahasiswi skng.pe nie..grow up!b independent gurl!everyone has their own path now.nnt kubur pn laen2 gak.buknnye sm pn.ape da..everything is in ur own hand now.its ur own choice.no more following d flow.okies??lap ya gurl!

No paiN No gaiN|i’m Not a girl Not yet a womaN|B stroNg
lyfe goes on..juz gonna make me strong..
but by d end of d day,i realize..i’m not dat strong after all…
bukan ku x redha..sekadar ingin mengadu pdMu..
la yukallifullahu nafsan illa wus’aha..

|mem0ries r beautiful when u d0nt have 2 deal wif d past| wat da heck??=P

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